In a way I knew it was coming. Dad had been suffering with some discomfort and had gone to the doctor to find out what was going on. For news conveyed in so few syllables, the ramifications that were so far-reaching sank in. All my mind could produce was a deeply grateful ”thank you God” as the pain ate up all the content feelings that had been previously flowing through my body. Thank you because I’d seen Dad recently. Pain because I just couldn’t imagine a world without him.
Dad recently visited me from the UK when I suffered from convulsions and then unconsciousness after falling on the pavement. This happened as I walked home from work in the city of Joinville, Brazil, where I lived at the time. After a few days, I awoke and found myself in the local hospital. To see Dad at my bedside was alleviating despite the fact I couldn’t express it due to my drowsy state. There he was, representing my family.
This happened in July. Dad decided to stay on a bit and left in August, not that long before I heard the news. When the news came through I hadn’t seen anyone else from the family for about a year. I thank God that the visit was made because of the quality time I could spend with him as well as the distance now between me in Brazil and him in the UK, it does not feel so great. This really helps me to deal with the situation. In a few weeks my wife and I will be flying to the UK to be with Dad and family. (albeit with potential immigration problems due to her Brazilian nationality. Please pray for us.)
Most of all, I don’t despair in the possibility of my Dad’s death – he’s going home, he’s run the race. God has everything in His hands. That makes me smile. It’s just, selfishly, Dad won’t be there for me nor the rest of my family… or any other person for that matter. However I realise that, one day, I will see him in Glory and together we will celebrate what we have gained through Christ. Bless the Lord, my soul cries out!
The good news is that if you’re reading this and you know the Treasure that is Christ, you can have the same confidence.